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February 5th, 2017
08:21 pm
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Introverts, Extroverts, and Introspectives
I have a very love-hate relationship with the concept of people.  I'm a pretty simple case.  I'm a 10-0 Introvert.  I do not gain energy from being around people.  Even if the people are doing something I love, like participating in a 24-hour gaming marathon.

(We participated in Extra Life this past year, by the way.  That was really cool.  We stayed up 24 hours playing cooperative video games, and a bunch of people came over throughout the day to support us.  Planning to do it again this year)

We've been hiding from people, trying to recharge our batteries from the big ball of stress that 2016 ended up being.  I don't think Steph's batteries are full yet, but she's already getting itchy for human company.  I never know when to encourage her to hide (like me) or reach out to folks.

(One of the reasons I haven't done as much journalling in the past few years is that I feel like Stephanie is the interesting one in our relationship, and she doesn't always like it when I journal about her. :) )

Me, I'm just hard to get to know because I'm so introverted.  I like people in the abstract, and I like specific individuals, but interacting with people is so messy and strange and painful for an asocial person like me.  Alcohol never served as a disinhibitor for me; I mean it works, but I'm not accustomed to it and even drunk I'm still not good at chatting with people.  Board games became a bridge too, but nowadays I spend much more time teaching people how to play a game instead of getting into the zone and making it a bonding experience.

That's what originally turned me to journaling; it became a wonderful way for me to interface with friends without all the awkwardness that is JAYMARK.  I miss that.  I miss my friends reading my journals and getting that deeper understanding of me; I miss reading my friends' journals and getting closer to them.  In the world of Facebook, I'm it appears personal journalling is a wave of the past, but I can always dream.

I've got much further to go if I actually aim to hit 52 posts this year.  Make them short and sweet.  Short and sweet.  I've just gotta hit my stride. Let's see what else I can do.

Current Mood: lazylazy
Current Music: Super Bowl LI crowds
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January 10th, 2017
07:21 pm
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Resetting 2017

Greetings!  I'm Josh.  A long, long time ago I started this blog as a way to chat with family and friends about my life in college without having to actually call and talk to them one at a time.  It gave me an outlet to vent about my frustrations and surprises, and I got to know a lot of interesting people.  Then, after a few years, people started to drift away from Livejournal for a variety of reasons...  Policy changes at LJ...  Migration towards Facebook, Twitter, and Instagram... Graduating from school and having jobs, children, and whatever else that leads toward having a more boring life and less time to write besides.

Well, you know what? I'm back.  The only thing I've consistently done on this blog in the past few years is my annual New Years meme, and it turns out I've actually lied on one of the questions this year.  I don't normally do New Year's Resolutions, but after some brainstorming with my wife, we've agreed to a few.  And one of them is: journal again.

So, I feel like I need to reintroduce myself to the world.  Hardly anyone reads my journal besides spider bots anymore and most of my current friends haven't touched their LJ in years, but maybe when I have a new body of work I will attract a few new followers.  So!  Allow me to tell you a little bit about myself.

I was born on the Ides of March in 1984.  That's not how I normally introduce it, but when you mention that your birthday is March 15 you quickly find out how much people know about Julius Caesar.

That makes me 32 years old currently, a fully-fledged adult by any measure.  I have a steady job, I am married, and as of yet I have no children, although you might not recognize that just by wandering around my house.  My passions, in order of acquisition, are video games, board games, anime, and my wife.  I fell in love with videogames at 4 years old, and with board games as a young child.  I stumbled across anime club during my first week of college and never looked back.  I met Stephanie during my Senior year, and got to know her over that summer and during my Super-senior year.

I'm one of those people who suspect they have Asperger's, although I've never been diagnosed (and I understand that diagnosis has been going out of vogue lately).  I'm weird and shy and I don't "people" well at all, but I am also polite, kind, gentle, and intellectual.

When I say intellectual, I mean that I devour subjects.  I usually end up with very little practical knowledge at the end of the process, but I love to learn anyway.

I can write some.  I haven't, for a while.  I am creative but I don't have a strong drive to create.  I am a computer programmer by trade (at a boring, regional insurance company in a city full of boring, regional insurance companies).  I have a double major in Computer Science and English.  I also have a minor in Asian Studies and a minor in Women and Gender Studies.

And now you know why it took me five years to finish college.

Why Women and Gender Studies?  Well, it's a long story, partially told in the archives of this journal.  (With a Live Journal account and friends-only access, you could read a lot more about it)  The shortest explanation is that I identify as androgynous--someone who is not gendered strongly as male or female.  Put another way, I reject traditional gender roles.  This was something I fully realized about myself in college, and it put my entire life up until then into perspective.  I do not go to church, but I was brought up Southern Baptist.  Now, the churches I grew up in were very liberal for Southern Baptist churches, the kind that actively debated whether or not to stay in the Southern Baptist Conference after the "great conservative takeover."  Still, we can say that gender identity was a foreign concept to me until I stumbled into the minefield.

It probably goes without saying that I am a very politically progressive person.  I cheer on LGBT causes and it gives me great pain that there is so much further to go before they will be totally accepted.  It frustrates me to listen to coworkers on the other side of the cubicle divider natter on about politics, but I know better than to get involved.

What else?  We have two cats; one is scared of strangers and the other hates strangers.  I listen to video game music more often than pop music, and we collect gorgeous nerdy art from anime/game conventions and kickstarter.  We have a board game room and a working arcade machine (Snow Bros, 1990).  And I've got 51 more journal posts to make this year, so leave some topic suggestions in the comments!


Current Mood: thoughtfulthoughtful
Current Music: Silent Hill 2 - Alone in the Town
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January 1st, 2017
07:40 pm
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Anime 2016
I already added favorite video games to my annual meme, but I feel like this can be separate. Just like last year, the bolded ones are ones I've seen before, but were new to her.  You'll see this year, we've pretty much only things that are new to me!  There are still a few on my list to subject her to, though...

Anime we completed this year:
Le Portrait de Petite Cossette
My Beautiful Girl Mari [Technically Korean]
No Game No Life
Professor Layton and the Eternal Diva
Psycho Pass Season 1
Rio Rainbow Gate!
The Wallflower
Waiting in the Summer
When Marnie Was There
World of Narue
Yubisu: I Couldn't Become a Hero, So I Relucantly Decided to Get a Job
Zaion ~I Wish You Were Here~

Anime we are still working on:
Cowboy Bebop

Current Mood: Comfy
Current Music: Final Fantasy VII - Let the Battles Begin! (in game... in Final Fantasy XV)

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07:27 pm
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I'll Keep Doing This, At Least!
Year End MemeCollapse )

Current Mood: relaxedrelaxed
Current Music: Final Fantasy XV - The Fight Is On! (in game)
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January 1st, 2016
01:53 am
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And One Last Thing
This isn't part of my normal New Years' Meme, but I thought it might be a good idea to list the anime Stephanie and I have watched together over the year. It's a rather small list this year, but we plan to make it larger next year!  The bolded ones are ones I've seen before, but were new to her.

Anime we completed this year:
Cardcaptor Sakura (and the first movie)
Sasami-san @ Ganbaranai
Haibane Renmei
Photo Kano
The Hentai Prince and the Stony Cat

Anime we started this year:
Cowboy Bebop
Gankutsuou: The Count of Monte Cristo
Code Geass
Psycho Pass
One Punch Man

I could totally get used to this, writing out journal entries while my sleepy sweetie sleeps next to me.  Just gotta stay committed and come up with something to write about.

Current Mood: excitedexcited
Current Music: Title Theme - Mario Kart 8 (in my head)
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01:37 am
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As the Years Turn
Annual Meme Below the Cut!Collapse )

Current Mood: artisticartistic
Current Music: Love Is Strange - Buddy Holly
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November 4th, 2015
12:40 pm
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I bought a new TV today for the living room!  Once it's delivered, our TV shows will be that much showier and our video games will be that much gamier.  But this isn't a story about the TV per se...

I have a Discover card, and one of the credit card's features is an online deals shop.  I noticed they have a % cashback deal on BestBuy.com, and we like their delivery service, so I figured that would be a good thing to do.  So, I logged into Discover.com, clicked through the link on Discover Deals to Best Buy, magicked our preferred TV into the shopping cart, and entered my credit card information.

Immediately, I got a text from Discover saying they noticed suspcious activity on my account and declined the last transaction.  Of course, it was the TV.  I had to sign back into Discover.com to confirm that I was really the person who attempted the payment, and THEN I had to go back to BestBuy.com and resubmit the payment for the order.  Fortunately, that was a relatively painless process, but still:

Discover flagged a purchase I made that was literally a link from their secure website.

Technology... baby steps.

Current Mood: amusedamused
Current Music: Yoshi's Island - Level Select (in my head)

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October 9th, 2015
08:01 am
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I see your mass-produced sports team apparel, and I RAISE you my fictional sports apparel!

Current Mood: pleasedpleased
Current Music: Undertale - MEGALOVANIA (in my head)

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October 6th, 2015
04:04 pm
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I knew I was in trouble when I started toying with using Facebook as a blogging device.  Maybe this is an outlet I need again.  It's sad that none of my old crew are around to listen on the other end of the tin can, but ultimately that's not what a journal is about either!

I've updated my profile, and mostly future-proofed it.  I kept most of the old verbiage, but it sounds so pretentious now.  I'm not saying it didn't sound pretentious before, but I suspect I was a more pretentious person five years ago.  ...I'll keep picking at it.

Livejournal has a "User Rating" now, that shows you how popular you are on the site.  Only one of my old friends has posted in the last year; I just started posting again this week.  Yesterday, I was in the 15,000s.  Today, I am 14,321.  This site must be a ghost town!  Fortunately, that doesn't matter as much as it used to, since commenters can sign in via Facebook.  There are other ways to log into Livejournal too, but I'm too old for Twitter (or old-fashioned? or maybe just asocial? one of those), and none of the other ones matter.

To kickstart this whole updating thing, I'll start with the basics.  For instance, the video games I've been playing in the last year.

So what have I been playing this year?Collapse )

Current Mood: bouncybouncy
Current Music: Undertale - It's Raining Somewhere Else
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07:57 am
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I convinced a coworker to buy Undertale.  Sweet!

(It was easy, because they are a Homestuck fan.  But STILL.)

Current Mood: accomplishedaccomplished
Current Music: Undertale - Spider Dance (in my head)

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